... or something like this is what I have gone through since this post and the whole 'finding my real SELF' journey.
What had seemed to be a rather light, carefree and fun experiment turned into 2 weeks of depression.
Without further ado I share my two words with you: 80% understated, 20% elemental. I do not have the book with me right now, so I can not tell you the exact definitions, but I think you get the idea.
I like my 20%. Elemental is great, it is about philosophy, learning, thinking, searching for reasons, being down-to-earth, loving both art and science, finding comfort in the very basics of nature. This is what supposed to differentiate me and move me forward. I am more than OK with that.
But there is the other 80%. My main characteristic that should define everything I do. That is my SELF, I do everything with this in my mind. This is what defines me. And no matter how nicely the authors of this book put it emphasizing the positive side of it, an understated person can not achieve anything in today's world. I can see it. I live and work in a highly competitive international environment. ASSERTIVE was the first word I learnt when I started working in Brussels. If you are understated, you are a nobody. And because I do everything in this spirit, I will probably turn my kids into understated people which would be the last thing I want...
I have been thinking about questions like these a lot and very slowly the little pieces of my life start come together again. I do not really know what to do with these discoveries about myself... I kinda think that I was happier when I was more detached from myself. But maybe that was only ignorance.
This is my very last post about my SELF. I will not bother you with this anymore.
